Friggin White Reaper!

What sucks is that I just missed them by like 2 damn weeks.. I bet that was one helluva show!

But I Have It Now....

You cannot ask for love
It may come
If you wait year after year after year

Love is the tide in, rises and falls
Strong like the iceberg, gone with the thorn
Love is the rain that falls in the night
Hard in December, dry in July

But I have it now
By the throw by the pound
But I have it now
Gonna drink it down

What do you want from love, what do you need?
Is it something sweet?
To make you feel complete

Love like a road can strangle or hold
Love like the wind won't do what it's told
Love like the fire that burns on the shore
Those flames will mourn you
They can't be strolled

Crash in the New Year

I just signed up to skate ref "if needed" that makes me very nervous...

< 3 Dallas Green - City and Colour

Woman
My love is never ending
Like a sea without a shore
Woman
I'm a fool guilty of old crimes
But you are the one I adore
Woman
When the world has emptied
And the planet is covered in dust
I will stand
Stand beneath the silver moon rising
Waiting to resurrect our love

Love
Love
Love
Love

There something in the back of this song that reminds me of Harry Nilsson....

Trainwreck.. A Tricky Chickflick

Expected serious vulgarity. Got it.

He took took me to the Cuddles under the Stars 

and just spent the movie rolling in fits of laughter....

and I'm Hoofing it...

Car died.. welp, not totally died, but needed more done that cash I had.  Rather than taking a ridiculous loan I opted to just suck it up and bum rides.. and deal.  So lucky to get rides to and from work, to and from the DH. Just soooooo lucky! 
Fucking Cars. :(

Skid Rowe at the Dollhouse

Mike Rowe if hands down one of the coolest guys evah. Months ago he came and filled at the  San Diego Derby Doll's Dollhouse and he was a pleasure to meet in person.  We had to keep quiet about the visit until it got confirmed to air, which it did and it was so neat to see our home on CNN.

The girls all came across so well on TV, Ringer is just plain hypnotic.

When It Rains, It Snows..he Says

Lets recap.
*Get a letter from landlord, he's giving me a 20% rent hike
* Get a parking ticket, while parked in front of Dollhouse hauling water upstairs, take 5 minutes
* Hit neighbors car while backing out, she WAS pulled in my lane, all wonky like
* Car dies at work, spend $200 on new batteries, because of course it needs new terminals too
* Day after batter, car overheads on 5 at the S curve in downtown, radiator fan needs replaced, $400
* And I've been sick for a month


So, with that, I'll take a deep breath and be thankful for what I am lucky to have.
* Kids who are highly intelligent, strong willed  and healthy
* A wonderful and loving, not to mention brilliant boyfriend
* Fantastic job that I feel fulfilled at
* Slew of friends and league-mates
* Healthy working relationship with x- husband


Money stuff can suck, but it will have to work itself out.
and exhale.....

Take Me Along...

She thinks I'm crazy but I'm just growin' old....

< 3 and Hockey & Tractors

For Date Night, he took us out to Stone Brewery where I tried all the things I usually scrunch my nose at in detest. I am working my way out of my comfort zone with help. I tried the duck tacos, 3 different beers, a mead and a sour.  Only making a few small faces. :)

and HOCKEY!
So glad we have a team again! I don't care that seats are in nosebleed, as long as were there!
He wore is Francis Whalers sweater, to which he got over 30 compliments , several high fives, and I think some other sexy advances, much to my chagrin. 

Sunday morning, we the funnest brunch at the Tractor Room. We sat next to a couple, and we all sang 80s tunes and chowed our insane cast iron skillets of wonderful crazy food.

SNL Musical Guest March 1980

March 1980

Skate Castle Loveland Colorado

Welp, the deal is I was going to watch all the SNL performances...

and was like ..

WHOA.. I totally skated to this shit.

 What ever happened to J. Geils? What is a J. Geils?

 

Picking Teen Battles

One of the biggest issues we have is old vs newer Arctic Monkeys.

She is almost 15 and I am a old fucking know it all.

I bark, "I was into the Arctic Monkeys when you were learning your ABC's"

I relay the story of how her Dad n I saw the Arctic Monkeys to celebrate our divorce,

and it is still one of my fondest memories of our marriage.

Celebrating out divorce.

Yet

No matter how pissy I am that the old is way cooler....

One of my favorite past times, is that drive to the dollhouse,

when we are flying up the Pacific Coast Highway to the 5,

and it is clear and beautiful outside,

and the windows are down and the sunroof lets in all the air,

and the radio blares

and we scream the lyrics together...

So laugh and joke around
Remember cuddles in the kitchen
Yeah, to get things off the ground
And it was up, up and away
Still it's right hard to remember
That on a day like today when you're all argumentative
And you've got the face on

and I count myself lucky

 

No Harm Done

Beach Cities Shark Bites

We all got up at the ass crack of dawn to head up to Torrance. The Dollinquents vs Beach Cities Jrs, the Shark Bites.  HUGE thanks to the Tinkerhells for driving us, what a lovely family!

The bout was great, well matched. Both teams played hard and Bad Little Jamma planted Shea on her butt. Of course she got right up, but its great to see such a huge punch in a small girl. Shea is excited to play ON her team at Thankscrimmage.  The Shark Bites have a wonderful vibe, that of a new team that hasn't been jaded by age and bullshit.

And the Mess You're Making

Baby says she's dying to meet you
Take you off and make your blood hum
And tremble like the fairground lights
Baby says if ever you see skin as fair
Or eyes as deep and as black as mine
I'll know you're lying
Baby says a howl of romance I'll get
From all your sleeping dogs, you thugs of God
I'll get one yet
Baby says for all I've forsaken
Make something of all the noise
And the mess you're making
And all the time's it's taken
Baby says there's death in these silver curls
That break up in jails
Send you diving for pearls
Without a care in the world
Baby says she's dying to meet you
Take you off and make your blood hum
And tremble like the pinball lights
Baby says a howl of romance I'll get
From all your sleeping dogs, you thugs of God
I'll get one yet

~ The Kills

< 3

League Practice for Newbies

There are some people, that when they invite you, you say yes. and Hartlyn is one of them.
After level 3 bootcamp, she invited all us 3s to league practice.
That is so intense, hitting pace-lines for what seems like FOREVER.. I called it after an hour.
But I am happy to say I got hit to the rail and to the infield and didn't fall, nor die. (as imagined)

Maybe I'll man up and do it again. (if invited of course)

< 3 Ben Weasel

I have been completely floored.
Screeching Weasel live was everything I hoped for and more. They ran thru every song at maximum speed and then straight into the next.
For such a massive catalog, he hit almost every favorite, they played - Hanging Around, Slogans, Making You Cry, Science of Myth, and A New Tomorrow, the only few that they didn't play that I notice and wished to hear was Automatic Rejector and Talk to Me Summer.

The intro was stellar, the jeweled jacked was stellar, and his voice was seriously spot freaking on.
I had it in my head that if the show started to suck, I was going to bail, but noooooo...

Totally neat totally sweet!
Totally knocked me off my feet!

I Got My Anthem for a New Tomorrow

I am a Screeching Weasel fan.
I am a huge fan of specific records and even more so of specific songs.
Since they NEVER toured, and I have never seen them, the bubble hasn't been popped yet.

The mystery remains, so to speak. 

Its scary to see bands you love years past their prime. It could make (Naked Raygun) or break (everything else) the memory in your head.  So, tonight we will see, I'm off to finally see them.

So, please let Ben do me solid and not crush my love of his band.

Somehow no matter what the world keeps turning

Jam Reffing Mom Jammer Daughter

The Playing with Dolls camp this weekend was amazing. There were girls from a handful of leagues.
And Quadfather and Regulate-Her were coaching, and they really are just top notch.

The scrimmaged on Sunday and its so great to see the girls out there for the first time.
And for the first time I jam reffed while Shea jammed.  Was kinda surreal and just really cool.

Until she went down, tail bone on the coping, as she does and there was nothing I could do but get in line for the next line up. 

Picnic-y Bits

Seriously.
He brought up a picnic to my office and it was the most thoughtful thing.
It makes me feel like blushing.

Who thinks to bring a container of ice, sugar, lemon wedges and ice tea?
He made little grilled cheeses on a baguette with pear and brie. 
And a plate of cantaloupe wrapped in some fancy ham, giant black grapes, sliced apples with more fancy cheese.

Wonderful wonderful thoughtful man!

Banked Track Jam Reffing & Really FAST Jammers

I typically NSO in the Game Executioner spot. I've only really jacked up a few things in that position.
It's been about a year, when home season started last year, and I'd climb on the track and the teams would start whizzing by, a voice in the back of my head would start to ask
....."How the hell do I escape?!"
I could feel a panic attack approaching. It was a bit scary, and I was only the GE.
Unless its the last jam and that last whistle could effect a lead change, chances are I am not pissing off anyone too bad.

The panic button is off now, and I feel like I can GE without much of a second thought.

I want to skate ref, because I like to skate.
However, the chances of fucking that up.. is exponential larger!

I walk in and Erin's like "your skate reffing'
ARGH! FINE!

So, I did jam ref once on our flat track and that was .. eh ok...
Not too much fear of being creamed by the pack or a wayward apex jumper.
However, the banked infield is so much tighter with the team benches, penalty boxes and ALL NSO's in it.

The crazy feeling of looking at the jam line and thinking "oh sh*t! its "so n so" be ready to RACE!"
The highest scoring jam was Injie for 20 points. That is 5 laps in 1 minute. Lady is FAST!
The crazier feeling of Boo tapping her hips and she turns her head and slow motion (it seems) and yells directly at me "I"M CALLING IT OFF" and the time lapse from that tap to the whistle takes FOREVER!

I called my first penalty on Anita for a low block, and of COURSE her number wasn't on her arm or shirt, so I'm like "UGH BLUE PIVOT LOW BLOCK UGH" :)

The worst  tho, was my jammer was lead, and she comes flying HIGH in the apex and as she crashes on her knees and takes out a blocker (lowblock) she is calling it off and I swear AT THE SAME TIME the not lead jammer jumps the apex and takes out a blocker (lowblock) and her Jam Ref is yelling LEAD CHANGE while it seemed like I was tweeting. It was a shit storm, obviously it was challenged and I obviously learned alot. and obviously the captain came into the ref room after for further clarification.

Obviously was doing my best. :) That's all I can do.

Loni Lethal, You Scare the Sh*t Out of Me & Other Navy Stories

Last nights practice was Loni coaching and Navy Chief Shannon "I'rish You'd Crash" and Navy Helicopter Mechanic Steve "Scissors Me Timber" and it was all hitting and positional blocking.
When I wasn't lost in the Navy acronym talk I was getting knocked around, pushed and shoved.

Loni has always scared the shit out of me. I know she works with Navy Seals and is deployed often and is getting ready to go to Iraq.  She is built like the proverbial shit house and is obviously sleeved with hula dancers on her calves.  The "take no shit" vibe is strong, and when I got to boot camp and put the 2 together "Hitting + Loni" I was shit scared.

I made it thru, and was even taking hits off the banked, but I didn't fall and I didn't get hurt, and I feel a bit stronger today.

Often, the more intimidating the person is, the sweeter it is when you get to know them and discover they are sweet and all you want to do is give them hugs. :)

You Left a Note in Your Perfect Script

Dating for twenty years just feels pretty civilian
I’ve never thought that
Ever thought that once in my whole life
You are my first time

People are boring
But you’re something else completely
Damn let’s take our chances

-Father John Misty

Guys & Dolls

Ohhh! I am so happy Guys & Dolls is back! Its always a great treat to have guest skaters scrimmage!
We had guest from as far has Australia! Including one 8 foot man named Thor. Ok, maybe 7 feet, but his name was Thor. He hit really soft, and it gave me warm fuzzies.

The Vivian Girls, Darger, D3 & Me

D3 and I went to see a documentary about Henry Darger. After hearing The Vivian Girls on the radio, I looked up where the name came from, thinking it was like those women who worked in the chain of hotels at train stops back in the day.. but no, just a bit farking weirder.
I sprung the invite on the BF at the last minute and quickly agreed, of course not surprising me at all that he knew of this man, because, hell... what doesn't he know about...

The documentary was so interesting, and the Mingei always has interesting exhibits and he got us passes for the rest of the summer. :)

Level 3 You Bastard

I hit my 27 last month. However, then there was goddamn hiatus, to which I did nothing but eat and drink and well.. other stuff that is no conducive to time trials. all my own fault.
Practice is hit & miss late with level 3 skills. I don't think we've done a serious hitting gauntlet since Soko was here. She broke he arm in May I think. :(
With that, I still need LOTS of work with the positional blocking and times trials are back to 26.5/5.

But I'll take that and think back to the day when my back seized at 10 laps and my lungs froze up.

Slowly but surly.
Yes, surly.

On a high note, Tsunami invited me to practice with league on Tuesday, and um. hello, backwards paceline? (wtf!) I hung for a bit, but had to leave early to make it to the library.

We're trying to watch every Bill Murray movie, chronologically. *watch* heh heh. <3 p="">
Also, today I had an "AHA! moment! I heard Lucille on the radio, and realized that where 
her blog title coems from! www.elektraqtion.blogspot.com  Good call!!!

Every Other Thai-Day

Every other Friday, I get a special treat of having a Thai lunch with a wonderful man.
And he gets me to try things I normally wouldn't go near, and that really makes my day!

Rock Me On The Water

Rock me on the water
Sister will you soothe my fevered brow
Rock me on the water, maybe I'll remember
Maybe I'll remember how
Rock me on the water
The wind is with me now
So rock me on the water
I'll get down to the sea somehow

Brown 7/5/15

I'll Be....

Oh the bitter winds are coming in
And I'm already missing the summer
Stockholm's cold but I've been told
I was born to endure this kind of weather
When it's you I find like a ghost in my mind
I am defeated and I gladly wear the crown

Now so much I know that things just don't grow
If you don't blessed them with your patience
And I've been there before I held up the door
For every stranger with a promise

But I'm holding back, that's the strength that I lack
Every morning keeps returning at my window
And it brings me to you and I won't just pass through
But I'm not asking for a storm

And yes I might have lied to you
You wouldn't benefit from knowing of the truth
I was frightened but I held fast
I need you now at long last

I'll be your Emmylou and I'll be your June
If you'll be my Gram and my Johnny too
No, I'm not asking much of you
Just sing little darling, sing with me

-

                          First Aid Kit

Battle on the Bank VIII

We're off to Seattle tonight! Ric-A-Shea is skating with the Dollinquents in her first championship tournament! I am actually truly excited to see the TTRB Peeps skate. That team totally warmed my heart BotB VII. We are planning a few extra days to tinker around town. What FUN!

... I think that we could make it....

Well the room is crowded, people everywhere
And I wonder, should I offer you a chair?
Well if you sit down with this old clown,
Take that frown and break it,
Before the evening's gone away,
I think that we could make it

Sooner...........

Beautiful.

Picture Me When You Start Watching

This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time,
All she ask's the strength to hold me,
Then again the same old story,
World will travel, oh so quickly,
Travel first and lean towards this time.

Oh, I'll break them down, no mercy shown,
Heaven knows, it's got to be this time,
Watching her, these things she said,
The times she cried,
Too frail to wake this time.

Oh I'll break them down, no mercy shown
Heaven knows, it's got to be this time,
Avenues all lined with trees,
Picture me and then you start watching,
Watching forever, forever,
Watching love grow, forever,
Letting me know, forever.

27/5

Brazen says that since WFTDA went to 27/5 we had to also. I get it, I understand, but never thought I could do it.  last night, I hit it. 27/5. All the girls said it was doable, I just had to keep trying.

DAMN YOU! YOU WERE RIGHT!

I am sure it helped with Ringer on the track making me nervous. :)
I think she only lapped me 3 or 4 times.

AZDD/AZRD

The drive to AZ is getting easier, this is the 2nd time in 6 weeks I have done the trek.
Its all ordered in my head and seems to make it go quicker.
SD, In-Ko-Pah, El Centro, Yuma, Dateland, Gila Bend, PHX. I made both directions in the time frame. Which included getting pulled over in Gila Bend and having a sit down lunch on the way back at the Space Age Cafe. Yay. Tourists! It was around 10pm on Friday night, and we were driving thru Gila Bend after a gas station stop, and I was pulled over for doing 48 in a 35. Its no excuse, but there was no one else on the road and I honestly didn't see a speed limit sign.  However, the officer was pleasant and I was honestly apologetic for speeding in his little town.  We said we were going to derby, and he said his wife played derby and gave me a warning and directions to PHX and told us to have a nice safe evening. :)

We were lucky it didn't get over 80 degrees, so lucky!
PHX is the largest, slowest grid to get around. ARGH.
The 202 will never be completed.
I got to see my Aunt Sharon and Uncle Steve that I hadn't seen in 8 years.
Sharon drove us out around the desert in her Polaris.
The tacos stand at 45th and McDowell had yummy al pastor.
The Jrs won the bout against the Minor Assaults.
Shea took a hefty fall on her head and got concussed
I didn't get bed bug bites at the cheap hotel.
There were TWO cherry lime-ade's consumed.
PHX streets are smoooooooth.
I chatted with a girl who had Tupac/Biggie socks.
We gotta ride with Nova and gotta help NSO at the AZRD scrimmage.
Finally got an AZRD tank top.
And Shea's favorite part of the weekend was Hartlyn did her bout braid. :)
We beat the sun home!

Level III aka FU WTFDA

Recently WFTDA up'd the laps from 25/5 to 27/5.
I totally get why our training head is bumping our up to, but ARGH!
Level 3 is a good place for me for a while, a looonnggg while. I totally not comfortable with gauntly hits, I cannot hit up or down whatsoever, but considering how long it took to get thru level 1 and 2, not passing level 3 on the first time is A-ok!

What I am pretty stoked about is that I'm at 26 and 1/2 laps. Inch by inch, they get a little better.

Cloxy made it, I am so stoked on that broad, she's gonna be friggin awesome league!

Mostly I'm Silent

All day long, I have just had this Chicago  song in my head...

He talks sings about the feelings at the beginning of relationships can be so strong,

and he wants to put the feelings into words but he can't, 

and he is just silent.

And its perfect...

TMBG @ Belly Up

amber aGGona and I are getting old

and we still haven't walked in the glow of each others majestic presence
Listen amber hear my words
They're the ones you would think I would say if there was a me for you

While the John's played my song while his arms wrapped around me.

Just another perfect moment.....

May Daze

May Daze was a very long, 3 full bouts in 2 days, but I LOVE to see Penn Jersey!

ADIDAC

How do you know when a boy really likes you?

Is it when he wakes up way before you and  makes you crepes?  

I think it is.

Within Your Clutch

Before the Weight Can Leave the Air

There's the progress we have found
A way to talk around the problem
Building towered foresight
Isn't anything at all

Buy the sky and sell the sky
And bleed the sky and tell the sky

Don't fall on me
What is it up in the air for
Fall on me
If it's there for long
Fall on me

It's over it's over me

 

 

Dear Grimes; I Love You

My heart will never feel
Will never see
Will never know
Oh, heart
And then it falls
And then I fall
And then I know
My heart will never feel
Will never see
Will never know
Home and I know
Playing the deck above
It's always different
I am the one in love

Level 3

A year a go, 2 laps of sticky feet was never going to happen, flat, and hell no, banked.
10 months ago, rail kicks sure did look pretty, done by someone ELSE.
8 months ago, a double footed jump over the bag on the apex was a load of crap.
6 months ago, 25 in 5 was a joke.
And all that self doubt, was met with boot camping like a mutha, running on my lunch break at work, daily planks, a metric shit ton of squats and a league of support.
Never a side glance of doubt, my encouragement cup runneth over.
And on my 14 month of boot camp, a week after my 41st birthday, I retook the whole level 2 skills.. again.. by Mayhem.
Last skills to pass, was the fucking time trials, on the banked.
Of course it just so happened, league was waiting for us to clear the track for them, so they watched.
Never being so nervous, I could feel their supportive eyes, and hear the cheers and the yells of "get lower!", "keep your stride", "PUSH!"

I hit 26, even passing 3 of my bootcamp friends.

What I am taking here, is that we're never too old, were never too out of shape, to start again.

Now, its time for the real work to start.

MAS MOTHRAS

Mothraaaasss

 

Totally the year of the Mothras...

Medium Canadian Party

Zrelak and I had a party once, where we made beer formulas to decide how much beer to buy, yes on a whiteboard. But those were the good old days of working at an ISP. We share birthdays.
We decided on a Medium Canadian Party, not too big, not to small and I cannot remember why on earth we wanted to be Canadian.
That was oh.. 11 years ago?

This year, we are all grown up. Hah.  We had dinner with Zrelak and his amazing wife at my favorite little spot, the Red Fox Room. We drank and ate steak and I had just a wonderful night.

 

There were dirty sailors, and baby making music and strawberry mojitos and lemon drops.   The dance floor was pitch black, with only the sound of my heels, and the low whispers, trying to remain hushed. I hear the word was sent like a game of telephone and I was rendered a keeper and all was well. We wandered thru the rest of our weekend in a haze. Conversations are at length, stares are focused, and I am so enveloped.  

They say your 40s are where it is at... So far so good. It sure is nice to feel again.

Oh The Frank....

Juxtaposed in each moment's sight
Everything that I ever saw
And my one delight
Nothing can strike me in such awe
Mouth intricate shapes the voice that speaks
Always it will soothe
Rarer none are the precious cheeks
Is the size of each sculpted tooth
Each lip and each eye
Wise is the tongue, wet of perfect thought
And softest neck where always do I
Lay my clumsy thoughts
She is that most lovely art
Happy are my mind, and my soul, and my heart.

Roll Down the Window & Let the Wind Blow Back Your Hair

The screen door slams, Mary's dress sways
Like a vision she dances across the porch
As the radio plays
Roy Orbison singing for the lonely
Hey that's me and I want you only
Don't turn me home again, I just can't face myself alone again
Don't run back inside, darling you know just what I'm here for
So you're scared and you're thinking
That maybe we ain't that young anymore
Show a little faith, there's magic in the night
You ain't a beauty, but hey you're alright
Oh and that's alright with me

Springsteen

David Lee Roth Drive a Hyundai

New Digs

 

New desk! Way more room!

You've Been Tearing Me Up in the Dead of Night

Working on a feeling
Breaking down the ceiling
Digging up a deep end
Freezing on the beaches
Reaching for the sweetest, sweetest peaches

This goes back to this..

Friday the 13th

When yer hanging with Dicks, then yer getting Mai Tai's tattoos on yer side boobs.

 

Of course we ended the night with them oohing over the wine, and me just being so happy.

First Day of My Life.....

How the West Was Won - AZRD & Atom Day 1

We drove out on Friday night, staying at Slaviks with 11 peeps. All in the family, eh? Day was was the Dollinquents against SDRD's Teen Terrors. What a great team, I am always impressed with McKillah. Girls just is totally eyes on the prize.  Phoenix really brought it to the Chula Vista bout lat year as well, and they took it here also. Well done, Phx.  For Sheas' first official bout, she pulled 4 penalties but her jamming pretty good.
Her Grandpa & Aunt came up from Tuscon to see her, which was just fantastic!
They won the 2nd bout against Sin City, which really brought their spirits up. From my perspective, its just so enduring to watch Shea bond with the team, slowing she is finding her place, earning her spot.  Being part of a team means carrying your own weight and being an asset, not a liability.
These teenagers are the strongest girls, and I say that with such admiration. This sport is tough physically, and more so mentally. I see them leaning on each other for strength and support.
These girls give my teenager something that not only can I not give, but its hard to explain, but its plain as day when I watch them work together.