I Slow My Steps and Start To Blur

I Mean, She Was Steamin'

Last night I played pool with an Irishman and talked Thin Lizzy.

Life can be perfect.

He Never Saw My Heart

What I get when the sun hasn't even risen....

 

I never saw the mornin' 'til I stayed up all night
I never saw the sunshine 'til you turned out the light
I never saw my hometown until I stayed away too long
I never heard the melody until I needed the song

I never saw the white line 'til I was leavin' you behind
I never knew I needed you until I was caught up in a bind
I never spoke "I love you" 'til I cursed you in vain
I never felt my heart strings until I nearly went insane

I never saw the east coast until I moved to the west
I never saw the moonlight until it shone off of your breast
I never saw your heart until someone tried to steal it, tried to steal it away
I never saw your tears until they rolled down your face

I never saw the mornin' 'til I stayed up all night
I never saw the sunshine 'til you turned out your love light babe
I never saw my hometown until I stayed away too long

I never heard the melody until I needed the song

 

-Tom Waits

Me + D = Irresistible Force Paradox

The unstoppable force paradox, also called the irresistible force paradox, shield and spear paradox, is a classic paradox formulated as "What happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object?" The immovable object and the unstoppable force are both implicitly assumed to be indestructible, or else the question would have a trivial resolution. Furthermore, it is assumed that they are two entities.
The paradox arises because it rests on two incompatible premises: that there can exist simultaneously such things as unstoppable forces and immovable objects. The "paradox" is flawed because if there exists an unstoppable force, it follows logically that there cannot be any such thing as an immovable object and vice versa. 

Mike Alder (2004). "Newton's Flaming Laser Sword". Philosophy Now. 46:

 

Oh Love.

Love, look what you've done to me

Never thought I'd fall again so easily

Oh, love, you wouldn't lie to me

Leading me to feel this way

- Boz Scaggs

A new journey is upon me.

I have found love in two places.

One old, familiar, deep safe and all encompassing. 

One young, stirring, unexpected and intriguing.

Never being less than selfish, I am going to try a new route.

One of polyamory.

I have been in love with D for years. We have had waves of insanity.

Waves of deep love and deep loathe.

When the going is good, it is like no other.

When the going is bad, run for cover, the earth is scorched.

We are  kindred spirits.

I saddled up next to T, while he was sitting alone at the bar at local hangout.

Me having little restraint, 

noticed he was alone and just so cute had immediately requested a slow dance.  

His thick NY accent and acceptance of my silly slow dance proposal knocked me out. 

D and I had put 3 years of dating to rest and I felt like a kid in a candy shop,

yet the feeling of remorse was strong and conflicting.

T was here for 6 weeks, then was shipped out to Bahrain.

While he was gone, D decided to change his life trajectory.

Which included the repair of all I had destroyed.

While D's aim was true, T's intent was also crystal clear.

"I am returning back to SD, and I am returning to you"

The roller coaster had begun to leave the station.