Friday, April 26, 2019

And I hope that you don't fall in love with me

Would have been so much easier for you?

Try and See it my Way


Out of Desire, Babe, not Consolation


'Cause I know that in time, I'll only make you cry
This is our last goodbye

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

/ˈwən ˈˌsīdid/


one-sid·ed
adjective
adjective: one-sided
unfairly giving or dealing with only one side of a contentious issue or question; biased or partial.

 My side was there and I tried my hardest for you to understand me, to get me.  You have always been the voice of understanding, for everything that comes before you.  You always gave the benefit of the doubt, you never judged.  Why was I unable to communicate verbally with you? Non-verbally had always been easy, and for years, you were hard to talk with.  For years, I tried to work around you, to make you  at ease, to make you comfortable.  Hell, for years, you couldn't mumble the word "love" from your strong sweet lips. Perhaps, I got use to it.  Then, it all comes crashing down and no matter what I attempt to say, the babelfish was gone and you no longer understood me. 

The feeling was that of of screaming inside yet being paralyzed.  How I long for a different outcome.
How I see you everywhere.  How it kills me to know how much pain you are in and having no way to fix it, to help you.

Do know though, that the other side hurts too.

Friday, April 12, 2019

Monday, April 1, 2019